WHOA. Major hiatus from me recently. Apologies all around.
Here’s what’s been going on: I’M HAVING A BABY!!!!
Well, I’m not literally carrying it – my wife is doing the hard work part of it – but my father-drive has kicked into high gear and I’ve been too distracted to focus on much other than what needs to be done to prep for this little, amazing, mind-blowing creation that is the combination of:
a) me: weird, obsessive, self-critical, self-promoting, enthusiastic, over-the-top, and highly creative
b) my wife: generous, kind, funny, genius, weird, strange, peculiar, beautiful, driven, motivated, motivating
This is bound to be the best piece of art I’ll ever create (along with any future potential siblings).
So I’ve put my creativity into personal spaces, and have put together most of our nursery, artwork for it, and so on.
I’ve been so distracted that the book I started 2 months ago is still untouched since the day we found out. My writing and arting has decreased. My teaching has improved as I view these little beings in my class through different eyes. I’ve become so much more concerned with safety, and I don’t know where that came from – all I can think is that it is due to this little growing thing that is making my teeny-tiny wife look like she is pushing out her little tummy as hard as she can. It is the cutest, most attractive thing!
But now I feel this surge of creative energy coursing through me. I don’t know what is coming. This happens a few times a year. I get a little bit sad, for no apparent reason, and then I start to visualize snippets of things – books, stories, artworks. Everything becomes inspiration, but for what, I don’t know. I will sit on it for a while longer, and it will explode through me – it might be an artistic turn over (I think it’s going to be visual this time), or it could be a literary growth – a new focus.
It’s a highly distracted, overstimulating time in my life right now. I love it.